Jesse Ngatikaula is “really worried” about the outcome of his $25,000 plastic surgery.
“I’ve been in so much pain, and I truly feel that this last surgery ruined my life,” the “Secret Life of a Mormon Wife” star tearfully shared in a TikTok video on Thursday.
“I know it sounds dramatic, but my whole life is my image. I’m on camera, I’m on TV shows, I have to go to press conferences, and now I’m being torn apart by everyone.”
Ngatikaula went on to say that going under the knife had “ruined” her career, adding: “I’m reluctant to take the chance, but I have to.”
The reality star, who revealed the shocking cost of the surgery on Instagram last month, agreed with the criticism but also implored trolls to stop commenting on her appearance.
“I would like to let everyone know that I am extremely dissatisfied with this outcome,” she said in the video. “My face looks terrible, and I totally agree.”
Ngatikaula, who is known for being outspoken with fans on social media, admitted that she “didn’t really know what[I was]getting myself into” and initially only intended to have lower blepharoplasty before being recommended upper blepharoplasty and fat grafting.
“To be honest, I didn’t want fat grafting,” she admitted. “I just listened to the suggestion and didn’t really understand what it was, what it would do, what the outcome would be, what the recovery would be.”
Looking back, she wishes she had “asked more questions” and that medical professionals had given her more information.
Ngatikaula, 33, also claimed that fat grafting was done on her lips which she “didn’t ask for or want”, leaving her lips “really bumpy”.
“If you watch Season 5, it’s going to be even worse. All through Season 5, I look awful. My face is swollen and my eyes look crazy. I don’t look like I used to,” she warned about her appearance.
“I’m really insecure…I know that the way I look has changed a lot and I don’t like it. I really do. I look back at how I looked in the past. I look back at Season 4 and I’m like, ‘Damn, I looked really good.'” I wish I could have seen that. I started crying when I was talking about it. ”
Ultimately, Ngatikaula said she was “blinded by self-confidence issues” and was unable to see her beauty without surgery.
She realized that she had “taken it too far with my anxiety” but insisted this was her “biggest learning” in life and that she would never touch her face again, except for Botox.
Mr Ngatikaula also advised people considering cosmetic surgery to “think it through, do your research and take your time.”
“It’s okay to be beautiful in your own skin and reach a level of confidence where you feel like you don’t need anything else,” she concluded.
