Kim Kardashian says she had ‘Stockholm syndrome’ with ex Kanye West

Kim Kardashian looks back on her seven-year marriage to Kanye West.

On the Season 7 premiere of Keeping Up with the Kardashians, the 45-year-old took a break from filming All’s Fair, the Ryan Murphy series in which she stars alongside Glenn Close, Sarah Paulson, Naomi Watts and Niecy Nash-Betts, to open up about her relationship with her ex-boyfriend, with whom she has four children.

“I haven’t had psoriasis since my divorce, but it just started coming back,” she revealed, noting that she recently felt “pretty tested” by West, whom she married in 2014 and divorced in 2021.

“So I have psoriasis again,” she said, trying to prove her condition. “I was more stressed out, probably because I had to super, super protect what I was supposed to protect.”

In a confessional, the mother of four was asked what “went through her mind” when she saw West’s erratic behavior. “Poor children,” she said. “Everyone around can handle it, but please protect my baby.”

Kardashian insists she is especially focused on protecting her children, North, 12, Saint, 9, Chicago, 7, and Psalm, 6, and revealed that one of them recently heard about their father’s actions.

“They’re going to know things. They’re going to grow up and understand. So my job as a mom is just to make sure they’re protected when that kind of behavior is happening.”

Kim reflected on her relationship with rapper West, 48, and her decision to divorce, admitting that she “always felt like I had a little bit of Stockholm syndrome” in her relationship with West.

“I always felt so bad, I always felt so protected, and I always wanted to help[him],” she said, adding that she thought to herself, “I should have held back,” and “I should have helped him.” But, “this was the first time I didn’t personally feel responsible for it.”

“It’s very sad,” she added of the situation standing between them.

During the episode, Kim also shut down talk of having the “luxury of walking away and never having anything to do with[him]again.”

“That’s not my reality. This guy, we have four kids, and it’s so confusing because all the talk on the internet is, ‘I’m in charge of the kids.'” He never called me and asked me to meet him. ”

“But I’m going to wake up and it’s on Twitter that I’m protecting my kids,” she continued. “If it’s not true and it’s not reasonable, then I just have to…I can’t get involved all the time. This is a divorce, not a kidnapping.”

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New episodes of Keeping Up with the Kardashians drop on Hulu on Thursday.