Madonna revealed that she and ex-husband Guy Richie were contemplating suicide while fighting in 2016 to protect her son Rocco.
“There was a moment in my life where I wanted to cut my arms out (here),” the “Material Girl” singer confessed to Jay Shetty on Monday’s episode of his “On Wynty” podcast.
“I was actually thinking about suicide. It sounds really strange to come from me because I’m not emo, but I think “I can’t have this pain anymore.”
Madonna, 67, revealed that she was “not a game without responsibility,” but she “is” by trying to “revenge” people who mistreated her.
The Grammy Award winner described the custody fight as “one of the most painful moments of (her) life.”
“Even if my marriage didn’t work out…they were trying to take my children out of me and said, ‘They might just kill me,'” she explained. “That’s what I was thinking.”
Madonna recalled “going on stage every night” as she took part in her rebel heart tour and dismantled legal matters with her lawyer.
“I just lie down on the floor in my dressing room and sob,” she said. “I really thought it was the end of the world. I couldn’t take it.”
“But thank God, I don’t feel that way anymore,” continued the “Vietnamese Our Lady.”
Madonna explains that her spiritual journey helped her through a rough patch, and says she now sees difficult experiences as lessons rather than punishment.
The 57-year-old, a diva from “Vogue,” married between 2000 and 2008, welcomed Lourdes Leon, 28, in 1996 and Rocco, 25, in 2000.
In 2016, Madonna and the film director realized that Rocco, then 15, had a custody contract after he tried to move to the UK to live with his father.
The custody war was triggered in December 2015 when Rocco refused to return from London to New York to spend a holiday with Madonna.
At the time, the judge ordered Rocco to return to the Big Apple despite sources posting that the era of the time was “not getting along with his mother.”
In September 2016, Exes resolved the case and Rocco was approved to live abroad with Ritchie.
