Yesterday I was worried that he might find her.
Hilary Duff revealed that she constantly worries that her husband Matthew Koma will one day wake up and want to be with someone else.
Duff, 38, admitted to Rolling Stone in an interview published Thursday that “I always wonder if Matt is going to leave me and go to the indie songwriters I work with at Coolio,” adding that it’s a recurring dream she has.
She taps into that insecurity in her new song “Holiday Party,” singing, “You live another life in my head/Where you fuck all my friends/And I wish someone else had been your wife.”
Koma, who participated in the interview, immediately dispelled my wife’s concerns.
“That’s insane,” the songwriter, also 38, replied, adding, “But it’s also very real. It’s real to be emotionally trapped.”
The two met through Koma’s talent scout in 2017 and started dating.
“We ended up hanging out for two hours just talking about music,” said the “Lizzie McGuire” actress. “Then Matt emailed his manager and was like, ‘She’s really beautiful.'”
Koma quickly corrected him and remembered that he had actually written in the email that he wanted to marry her.
Duff and Koma had an intimate ceremony at their home in Los Angeles, and later welcomed sons Banks, 7, Mae, 4, and daughter Townes, 20 months.
The “mature” artist is also the mother of 13-year-old son Luca with ex-husband Mike Comrie. She and Comrie married in August 2010 and separated in January 2014.
Duff took a break from music to focus on motherhood, and returned to the studio for the first time in 2024.
Koma served as co-writer and producer on the “Cinderella Story” star’s upcoming album “Luck… or Something.”
“He was like, ‘Just make what we think is cool and what we want to listen to in the car,'” Duff said of Coma. “He has a way of boiling everything down and making it very digestible for me.
“That was the approach I took with this album: ‘What keeps me up at night? What is my anxiety?’ The themes are 10 years in the making. It was very healing to create something that felt exactly like me and where I am now.”
The new record, released Friday, also includes songs about his estrangement from his sister Hayley Duff and his complicated relationship with his father.
In the song “We Don’t Talk,” Hilary sings, “Because we’re from the same family, the same blood/We’re different combinations, but we rock the same way.”
“I feel like when I got divorced[in 2015]I was dealing with it privately and then the news broke and I was like, ‘Okay, great. I’m going to work on this again,'” she told Rolling Stone.
Duff called the rift “the loneliest part of my life” and wondered whether to share it with the world.
“People have known my life since I was a kid,” the Disney Channel alum continued. “So they know all the characters and they know what I’m talking about. It was important to me to be open about the subject matter. It really came from the heart.”
