Savannah Guthrie experienced a sacred moment with God early in her desperate search for her missing mother, Nancy Guthrie.
“My faith is strong and resolute, but I felt early on that one of the few things in my life was, ‘I’m okay with everything, God, I’m okay with anything. I can’t stand not knowing. We can’t stand not knowing. I have to know,'” she told Hoda Kotb in an emotional Today show interview Thursday morning.
“Then I heard a voice saying, ‘You know where she is. She’s with me. She’s with me,'” Savannah, 54, continued. “So whether she’s still on this earth or in heaven, I know where she is. I know who she’s with, but we need to know that.”
Savannah’s Today show interview with Kotub, 61, was her first interview since her 84-year-old mother was reported missing from her Arizona home on February 1st.
She reveals how she first learned of her mother’s disappearance and shares chilling new clues related to Nancy’s alleged kidnapping more than 50 days ago.
“My sister called me and said, ‘Are you okay?’ And she said, ‘No. “She said, ‘Mommy’s missing,'” Savannah recalled. “So I said, ‘What? What are you talking about?’ She said, ‘He’s gone.'”
Savannah continued: “We thought she must have had some kind of medical emergency that night and that the back door had been thrown open and somehow the paramedics had come, but that didn’t make sense.”
Elsewhere in the heartbreaking interview, the grieving journalist reiterated that the back door to Nancy’s Tucson home “was thrown open, there was blood on the front porch, and the Ring camera had been pulled out.”
“So we were like, ‘This can’t be done,'” she told a Today colleague, before imagining the situation in which her beloved mother would have been taken “in the middle of the night in her pajamas, no shoes, no medication.”
Of the numerous ransom notes she and her brother received in connection with Nancy’s disappearance, Savannah said she believes only two of them are legitimate.
“I received various notes, most of which, from my understanding, are not genuine,” she explained. “I didn’t see it, but anyone sending a fake ransom note needs to take a deep look at themselves.”
She added: “However, we believe the two returned notes we received are genuine.”
Savannah opened up about how her two children have coped with their grandmother’s disappearance, after citing “cruel” and “unbearable” speculation that her family was involved in Nancy’s alleged kidnapping.
Savannah also sobbed at the thought that Nancy’s disappearance could have been her fault.
“It’s my fault and I just want to say I’m so sorry, Mom,” she said through tears. “I’m so sorry. To my sister[Annie Guthrie]and my brother[Cameron Guthrie]and my children and my nephew and my brother-in-law Tommy, I’m so sorry. If it was me, I’d be so sorry. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry.”
The longtime “Today” host again begged for her mother’s return toward the end of her emotional meeting with Kotb.
“Someone has to do the right thing,” she cried. “We are suffering.”
